Monday, July 24, 2006

Five Years.

Its been 5 years today since my mom died. That was the day I stopped being who I was and suddenly became what everyone else needed me to be. For five years I put things aside that I wanted to or should have done. I still have to do things I don't want to do, but I am again doing things I want or need to do.

Life does go on for the living, and sometimes it takes a while to spring back from hurts and heartaches. I am honoring my mom today, but also am taking the time to be me again. I don't think she would have wanted it any other way. And I also don't think others in the family expect me to be there for them all the time either, even though I probably am. I finally had to put an end to never putting myself first, and that's how I made a comeback to trathlon and living.

3 comments:

Fe-lady said...

You certainly deserve to be what you want to be and live life to it's fullest! It's a balance, but yes, I see I get what I need along with everyone elses! (And it's not called selfish either!)

Fe-lady said...

Hey- there are some great pix of you and IronWil at the Johantrifest.com site! You should buy them! :-)
(I love looking at race results and tri photos from races!)

TriBoomer said...

It sounds to me like you've been honoring your mother long before today's post. I'm sure she would be proud of you of how you've done over the last five years.

Stay tuned...